The dust

The sand

My tears turning it into chalky streaks on my skin

This pain is too much

And then I see Him

I look down to avoid His stare

My knees are on the ground

Sore

Scraped

Bleeding

I have no strength to get up

I’m shaky

I try to get it together

I clear my hair and tears from my eyes

And then I see Him again

I keep crying

And I look back down

I feel so unworthy

He won’t want me

He won’t help me

Isn’t He angry with me?

Disappointed?

I’ve failed Him

in a thousand ways

But then I see Him

I don’t have it in me to go to Him

So He’s coming for me

He kneels down beside me

He lifts my head

His eyes are kind

He gently smiles

He is comfort

He is peace

He accepts me as His

He calls me daughter

I don’t have to earn that

I don’t have to do anything

I just have to accept His love

That’s all He wants

That’s all He’s ever wanted

Nothing more

Nothing can ever separate me

From His love

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38-39