I cry out in pain
in confusion
in sadness
It’s all relentless
Every time I think I’m past it
it shows up again
I cry out to You, God
Are You there?
Are You real?
What am I supposed to believe?
What am I supposed to do?
This is what lamenting feels like
Breathing heavy and fast
Almost choking
Pounding my fists on the ground
I wait
And I hear nothing
Nothing but silence
I can almost feel You
Just almost
A tiny bit
But I can breathe
And I will carry on
And I will pray again
Tomorrow