Oooh I feel that anger and pain
Wanting to jump out of me
And come out like a storm
And surround you
Not to hurt you
But just to shake you
I just want to shake you
And cry and
Fall down on the ground
Beneath you
And even though I will feel you
Looking down upon me
Like I’m less than you
Like you normally do
I want to beg you
And plead with you
To stop
To just stop
Stop all of your empire-bulding
Stop chasing numbers
Stop the pursuit of success
Stop for one minute
And realize the harm
That you have caused
The broken hearts you leave behind
Because there are many
Besides just me
Many people who don’t understand
Why
Why you did this
Why you used us
Why you discarded us
Why we meant so little to you
Because we loved you
Because we trusted you
And you treated us harshly
And now we think we mean so little to God
And that he just uses us
That he puts conditions on love
And that pierces our souls
It puts a huge chasm
Between us
And God
And people
And the church
And our faith
And all that we trusted
And we have to pick that up
Every day
We own that
We carry that
We walk with that
Day after day
It doesn’t just disappear
From our lives
Like we did from yours
It’s not so easy to get rid of
It stays with us
Day and night
Day and night
It’s so hard
Our entire family
Is in pieces
Pieces!
And I’m still so angry
And so sad and hurt
You’ll say “bitter”
And laugh me away
And that just hurts so damn bad
Because this grief and pain
Is so real
But the show must go on
You’ll get up on a stage
Where you relish the spotlight
And talk about things
That you don’t really live
That you know nothing about
And I will never get a phone call
I will never get an apology
So I have no choice
But to go before God
And pray every single day
That some day
You will just stop
Stop
Just stop
And realize
How your actions affect other people
I would forgive you, ya know!
And someday maybe
Just maybe
The “unity”
You love to preach about
Might actually happen
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