Losing Friends

I see it
Believe me, I notice
I see
that I don’t see

you

anymore
where you used to be
and that hurts me
but I’m letting you go

some friendships
are shorter than
I wanted them to be

I tried to tell you
I only shared my heart
And told the truth
You’ve even seen the proof
But it’ll have to happen to you
For the message to get through

You said we were family
You said you would stay
When I got a little messy
You threw me away
You judge my cynicism
You say I should go back
Now tell me why the hell
Would I go back to that?

You say it’s okay
But no, it’s NOT okay
To treat someone that way
I left the game
I refused to play
You’ll find out someday
For now
I’ll just stay out of your way

(God, I’m struggling with my anger today)

I tried all I could to mend
I’m no longer going to pretend
Sadly, some friendships have to end

Because I told you
I’m not going to do
What I don’t want to do
Standing up for myself is new

I’m sorry
If you don’t like it
Or understand what I’m writing
All I can say is that I’m trying

You’re angry at me
Because I chose to leave
Because I split from that team
To try and do the right thing
To find out what my faith means
To treat myself compassionately

I spoke words of honesty
And look where it got me
I guess you forgot about me

I’ll share my vulnerability
With people who accept me
All of me

Believe me, I am free

He’s breaking those chains